We Are The Flame.

I made my choice.

You can mark this day.

The day I pledge to take His name.

I will be strong.

I will be brave.

Standing for Him as I take my place.

I have felt the spirit burn truth in my heart.

It's in my heart.

I will stand, I will not fall

In a world that's weak, I will be strong

I'll be true.

I will choose His way.

I know what's right and I will not change.

In a world where so many will not...

I will.

I may be one but one becomes two

When you stand with me and I stand with you.

As we unite our cause is great

We're not just the candle,

We are the flame.

I will take the light He gives me and I'll hold it up high.

I'll hold it up high.

Ladies and Gentlemen.

I have my bishop's interview next sunday.

Can you believe it?

The Lord is watching over us.

I am a living testament of that.

I cannot wait to go out and serve!

Just call me Sister Brown!

HE'S HOME!

This has been one of the best weeks of my life.

ELDER BROWN HAS COME HOME!

I wish I could find the words to express my overwhelming excitement and joy.
But I can't.
So here is a video my lovely cousin produced.
Click the link below to share that special day with us!

Welcome Home Elder Brown!

Storms Make Trees Take Deeper Root.

Well, I might as well erase my last post.

The week we were broken up was complete hell.

I have never experienced heartache quite like that. 

And I have had my fair share.

Every success, every failure, every little thing I did,

I wanted to call him.

I wanted to tell him everything.

I wanted him to tell me every thing was going to be all right.

I wanted him.

But I couldn't call.

Because we were supposed to be broken up.

It made sense.

The whole college slash high school thing.

Right?

I just could not let him go.

Call me pathetic.

I spent every night craddled in my bed

Crying and praying.

Asking for this pain to be taken away.

That if this was the right thing then why does it still hurt this bad.

And my answer came.

I made a mistake.

A huge one.

I let go of the best thing that ever happened to me. 

And I had to get him back.

I fought long and hard for the relationship.

I fought for him.

Because I knew we could become something amazing.

And we were special.

We are special.

So I went to the Homecoming football game. 

And I wanted to kill him. 

He was acting ridiculous.

I didn't even know who he was.

I was starting to freak out.

So I told him that when he was done being rude,

He was more than welcome to come talk to me at my house after the game.

And he did.

We sat on the back of his little blue truck underneath all the stars. 

T-Swift in real life: 

I'm so glad you made time to see me.

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while.

You've been good, busier than ever.

We small talk, work and the weather.

Your guard is up, and I know why.

Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind.

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night.

And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine...

...

I poured out everything.

How much I missed him. 

That he was everything to me.

That I wanted him back.

Hoping he would forgive me.

We sat in silence for a long time.

And then he wrapped his arms around me 

and whispered in my ear,

"Its about time."

I let out a sigh of relief and cuddled into his chest.

Everything changed that very moment.

We could not stop giggling.

All of the sudden everything was hilarious.

I think it might have just been the giddiness of it all.

Or the kisses we shared.

But one thing is for sure.

I have never been so in love in my life.

I will tell anyone who asks.

I love him.

It's not that I am even swooned anymore.

It's so much deeper.

I love him and everything about him.

I love his gentleness.

And kindness.

I love the way he laughs at me.

And the way we laugh together.

I love the way he loves the Lord.

I love the way he thinks.

I love the way he speaks.

I love his passion.

I love his hands.

And the way they hold mine.

I love the way he is with my family.

He's practically the seventh Brown.

I love who he makes me.

I love who I am when I am around him.

I love everything about him.

And getting back together was the best decision I ever made.

It has made us a thousand times stronger.

We've been slightly obsessed with each other to be quite honest.

We talk on the phone at least twice a day, if not three.

I waste so much gas money.

But I don't care.

I am happiest when I am with him.

My boyfriend is in high school.

We live thirty miles apart.

We see each other only a few days a week.

And I couldn't care less.

Because he is absolutely everything to me.

And I won't be letting go of him again,

For a long, long time.

Called To Serve.

I have been called as a Relief Society Instructor in my singles ward.
Pray for me peeps.

Our Time Is Up.

Things change so fast.
One minute you're with him in your basement,
Watching Harry Potter (again) all snuggled up.
Telling secrets.
Giggling.
Kissing.
Happiness.
Everything is perfect and right.

And before you know it...

You're living in a big city.
You don't know anyone.
You get a job at Gold's Gym and...
BAM.
Dating city.
Really though.
Within two weeks,
You've been on five dates with strangers,
and have three planned for next week.
It's exciting.
It's new.
You love life.

But...

He's back in high school.
You live in separate worlds.
And you know it's not going to work out.
Four years is a long time.

So...

You have to let him go.
And it kills you.
Or pretty close to it.
You spend a week of nail biting and rationalizing.
You crawl into your bed at night in hysterical sobs.
Over and over.
But you can't deny that this new life you live isn't fair to him.
And he deserves better.
Because he is the best there is.

And so it comes.

You both sit there with tears streaking down your face.
Hands held tight.
Never wanting to let go.
Because you know when you do,
Everything will be different.
Nothing will ever be the same.

And for that one moment...

We were infinite.

I love him.
I love him with every fiber of my being.
I will scream it from the roof tops.
He knows me better than anyone else.
He is my best friend.
And always will be.

That why I could do it.

Just because we don't have the title, or we don't see each other as much,
Doesn't mean we will cease to exist.

This boy gave me the summer of my dreams.
He saved me from the depths of depression.
He was an angel sent to me.
He was mine.

But now...

Heavenly Father needs him somewhere else.
He has the ability to touch lives like no one I have ever seen.
Our time is up.
He completed what Heavenly Father needed him to do.
This boy put back together a broken girl.
He showed me light.
He taught me so much about who I want to be and how to get there.

Man...

I'm going to miss him.
But it's not like he died.
He's in high school.
And dating.
And playing.
And living the life he should live.
I know he's happy,
So I try to be.

I love that boy.
And a part of me always will.

This Deep.

I know, I know.
I need to blog about my three week endeavor across the country.
But.
Guys.
Some things can't wait.


I don't know the exact moment when it hit me.
Maybe that's because it's always hitting me.
I was sitting downstairs,
And I couldn't stop thinking about him.
As I kept thinking about him my stomach actually flip-flopped.
And then I thought about what my life would be like without him.
Remembered what my life was like before he saved me.
I shuttered at the thought of a life without him.
Bottom line?
I'm crazy about him.

I never expected things to get this deep.
Ever.
It's like...
We were meant for each other.
We just belong together.
Every piece fits.
He has become my entire world.
I need this summer to last forever.
I want this to last forever.

There it is folks.

I'm in love.

More than I have ever been.

With anyone else.

Ever.

Three Weeks. I'm ready.

Well folks.

Guess what?

I am out of here!
For three whole weeks.

I will be touring the country on a bus.
Visiting all the church sites through out the states.

Ask me if I have ever been so excited in my life??
Well, I haven't.
Until now.

Annnnddddd I am lucky enough to have this wonderful lady as my companion.

Ain't she a beaut?

We have been best friends since birth.

And not mention the funniest cousins around!

I cannot think of anyone else that I would love to tour the country with.

THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST TRIP EVERRRRR!!

Soooo....

I guess....

I'll see you in three!