Thursday, December 22, 2011


Last night he took me home.
He talked about his dad and his business.
Their struggles and triumphs.
I sat in the passenger seat of his truck
and smiled.
I love when he rambles.
He gets lost in his words.
So I just smile.
I give the appropriate head nod when needed.
I giggle when its expected.
But I am really just taking in the moment of being with him.
Just us.
It's so easy.
So natural.
I haven't felt this way in a long time.
Fourteen months to be exact.
It's nice.
It is different than when I was with Elder.
With Elder,
Everything was rushed. Reckless.
We only had so much time.
So I fell fast. Hard.
With him... We just are.
No rushing. No worry.
We just take life as it comes.
It is what I need.

When we got to my front door,
he told me how he felt.
I wish I could of had more wits about me...
I froze.
He was so forward.
And scared.
I had never seem him like that.
I loved it.
It was the first time I had ever seen him vulnerable.
He let his ego come down for a few minutes.
I don't think he will ever know how much that meant to me.
How much he means to me.
I don't know where I'm going with this.
I just like him.
We just are.

Thursday, December 1, 2011