Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Right Around The Corner.

If a June night could talk, it would probably boast it invented romance.  
Bern Williams

The summer night is like a perfection of thought.
Wallace Stevens



Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass on a summer day listening to the murmur of water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is hardly a waste of time. 
John Lubbock


Summer afternoon - summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language.
Henry James




Summer. Summer. Summer.
I can smell it.
Taste it.
It's in the air.
Make it come fast.
FASTER.

Yesterday,
I went to my concert.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BRUNO.
I THINK I WANT TO MARRY YOU.
get it?
JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.
BECAUSE I WOULD CATCH A GRENADE FOR YOU.

Best. Night. Ever.
Here are some pictures.






This was my date.
What a winner.

The night was amazing.
Amazing.
Like...
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm speechless.
Fantastic.

Today felt like
SUMMMMMEEEEEERRRRRR.
I didn't go to first period.
Because that is completely over-rated.
During second, things got better.
I thought I had a much over due fine..
But.
I don't.
So.
I get my yearbook!
During precalc,
I left.
And I went into the hall to see my Crush.
We were given a dare.
It might happen in the summer.
Maybe.
Hopefully.
What?
Then I jumped into my best friend's car.
Good ol' Billy Jean.
We went to Cafe Rio.
I ate a WHOLE burrito by myself.
Pure heaven.
I went back to the school to discuss grades with my teachers.
We duct-taped a girl to the lockers instead of going to fourth period.
I giggled.
A lot.
Then we went swimming.
Kind of.
Then we made cookies.
Then a sophomore serenaded me on a piano.
I sat and listened.
I thought about how good life is.

I was in my swimming suit and cover up.
Laying on the couch.
There was no worry of homework or a test coming up.
I have a very special boy in my life.
The one that gives me butterflies.
Summer is right around the corner.
I go to Lake Powell next week.
Grades are done.
Finished.
I survived my junior year.
No more stress for the next three months.
I have the bestest friends in the world.
My little red-headed sister.
My soul sister.
My Romeo.
My favorite sophomore.
My almost-step-sister/cousin.
I am so blessed.
I love my life.
Plus I got to wear a skirt today.
SUMMMMEEERRR.
I love you.


Monday, May 30, 2011

Time To Move On And Invite The Summer.

Tonight is the night I have been waiting for.
Tonight I will see one of my musical icons in person.
And he shall sing for me.
I will sing back.
And we will have a moment.

A boy will be next to me.
One that makes me happier than anyone else.
I hope we dance.
I know I will.
This is his first concert.
I hope it will be special for him.
Because I know it will be for me.

The concert is being at the UCCU center.
I found this out on Friday.
And I almost canceled this little party.
I went up to my room.
I hyperventilated a bit.
After a nap and some craisins,
I pulled myself together.
The last time I entered that center, I went to a concert.
An amazing one in fact.
BOB, Iyaz, and Jason Derulo.
All in one.
I do not enjoy music like that,
but Elder did.
And he wanted me to go with him.
So I went.
And well,
you know how that went.
That was our first date.
Our first connection.
And serendipitously, tonight I shall be sitting one row lower in the same section.
Yes.
Almost to exact same seats.
Elder has been on my mind A LOT lately.
And it's been hard.
Really hard.
Utah County has decided to turn into Seattle.
Rain. Rain. Rain.
Memories. Memories. Memories.
Not to mention,
I am falling for another boy.
Quite fast, and quite hard.
Despite my little cracks and broken heart,
I have let myself trust.
Have faith.
But I can't help but have Elder constantly there in the back of my head.
I know its over.
But all those emotions and feeling I have been trying to repress are opening up again.
But for someone else.
It is terrifying.
I can't get Elder out.
I know he has forgotten about me.
Why can't I forget about him?
And just move on?
Ugh.
I hate love.
I love love.
Summer will help.
No more school, no more stress.
I will just be free.
Completely free.

Summer is the time when girls go barefoot, 
and their hearts are just as free as their toes.

I am not going to hold back.
I know I will have regrets if I do.
I won't let thoughts of Elder drag me down.
I am going have faith.

I love the Notebook.
It makes me smile.
It makes me cry.
Here is a quote I have altered. 
I believe it fits my life.
Enjoy.

My Dearest Elder. 
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. 
I love you. I'll be seeing you. Love, Linsey. 


Sunday, May 29, 2011

Ahhhh. Teehee.

I like the way you sound in the morning

We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard

I like the way I can't keep my focus
I watch you talk you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together

Every time you smile, 
I smile
and every time you shine,
 I'll shine for you

Whoa oh I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall,
 jump then fall into me 

Baby, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause I'm gonna stay through it all so jump then fall


Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me I love each freckle on your face, oh,
I've never been so wrapped up, 
Honey, I like the way you're everything I've ever wanted

I had time to think it all over and all I can say is come closer,
Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall, 
jump then fall into me 

Baby, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause I'm gonna stay through it all so jump then fall


The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees,
I'll catch you
The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
But I'll hold you through the night until you smile

Whoa oh I need you baby
Don't be afraid please
jump then fall, jump then fall into me


Baby, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
Cause I'm gonna through it all so jump then fall

Jump then fall baby
Jump then fall into me, into me

Every time you smile, 
I smile
and every time you shine,
 I'll shine
And every time you're here Baby,
 I'll show you, I'll show you
you can jump then fall,
 jump then fall,
jump then fall into me,
 into me 
Yeah.

Bloggers.
I believe I have fallen.
I am giggly.
Tehe.

I'm going to the Bruno Mars concert tomorrow.
I.
Can't.
Wait.
Take a moment to examine what I shall experience.







Hello, This Was My Week.

Once upon a time Linsey never wrote on her blog.
The end.

Lets start with Wednesday:

I went to a choir concert.
And might I just say,
My school is oh so talented.
I sat by my romeo.
Our secret love....
It's fantastic.
After I arrived home I had the privledge of watching the American Idol Finale.
SCOOOTTTTTTYYYYYY!!!
My boy.
My love.
I called it from the very beginning.
He will be a legend.

Thursday:

Two words.
Bad. Day.
Do you ever have those days when nothing goes your way,
when teachers don't work with you,
when friends act silly,
when fate hates you,
when a certain boy ignores your existance,
when you have 170000000 things to do and so little time,
and you really just want a chocolate bar?

Yep.
That was my life.

That night we had our Dance Co banquet.
I wanted to cry.
It was so hard being with my entire Company for the last time.
But I was comforted.
We have so many great memories together.
We are sisters.
As cliche as it sounds,
We can't cry because it's over,
we should smile because it happened.
I will never forget Dance Company 2010 - 2011.
A true sisterhood.

Friday:

One of the best days I have had in the longest time.
At lunch,
A tailgate party was held on the band field.
Hot dogs were eaten,
and memories were made.
A complete success.
Then came the state championship baseball game.
I had the privilege to sit by my dear Crush through out the entire game.
BONDDINNNG definitely occurred.
Man.... I will write a little bit more about that later.
We lost.
But second in state is not that bad right?
It's actually quite amazing.
Then came Powder Puff.
Stupid seniors.
I hate you.
All of you.
And your cheating ways.
GRRRRR.
I got a real cool jersey that some lovelies made for me.
It sported the number 26 along with the name of "Puffs" on the back.
May I just say I love that shirt?
A lot.
Then came Cavestock.
Talk about your craziness.
At first everything went quite well.
Doing my free period I got work with the cotton candy.
A literal dream come true.
I am easily entertained.
Sue me.
Then the rain came.
Usually I'm a fan of water falling from the sky but not when we are holding an outside dance with expensive electronics that must be out of H20's way.
So,
the chaos began.
The rain meant we had to bring everything in.
Every chair.
Every table.
Every piece of equipment.
By the end I was a soaking wet mess that really needed a power nap.
Might I just say,
when things need to get done,
I turn into a different person.
My priorities are shifted and I run around like a mad women trying to get things done.
And things we a lot easier because my dear Crush was by my side for the most of the night.
He helped me with everything.
I really appreciated it.
He made me smile.
A lot.
Then Momo and I decided to take a break and wrestle in the grass.
One of the best ideas I have ever had.
She is a little monster.
I like a challenge.


Yep.
We are that cool.
Notice the jersey. Number 26.
Booyahhh.

After about an hour of endless clean up the dance began.
And I partied.
It was very hot.
I became very sweaty.
But did that stop me from dancing with my Crush?
NO SIRR.
American Fork High School is just so school.
At one point in the evening my red headed little sister, a little sophy I admire with all my heart,
and I decided to stand on the benches and dance.
Pretty soon,
our whole little group was on those old piles of wood partying like
 there was no tomorrow.
Towards the end of the night,
They played a song of unity and the whole school linked arms and stood in a big circle.
We all shifted back and forth.
Looking at each other's faces.
Looking at the seniors who are off to bigger and better things.
Wanting to cry.
But smiling thinking of all the memories.
We all shouted ah-chil-le-le.
For the last time.
It was a great end.
Not to mention,
I danced with my Crush.
Twice.
That's right.
And all I have to say is I believe I have fallen quite hard for the kid.
Never in my life had I thought it would have developed into this.
He is amazing.
I have never met a more amazing boy.
He makes me swoon.
And giggle.
And... man.
Not to mention he improved immensely as a dancer.
Mainly, we worked on dips and spins.
Magical.
We had a moment.
I am the luckiest girl to ever walk this planet.
But at the same time,
I am terrified.
I don't know how to conduct myself.
I don't know what to do.
Hello seventh grade.
That is what I feel like.
Let the pieces fall where they may, I like to say.
Cavestock.
Success.
Pure happiness.
I love my life.
Very much.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Its Almost Here.

I like days like today.

School was long.
Hard.
Dreadful.
The usual.

I got a 96% on my english final...
so I was pretty darn slap happy.

The afternoon was spent with one of my favorite sophomores.
He helped me with chemistry.
We ate chocolate chip cookies and sat on his porch.
We solved titration problems.
The sun was our friend.
I like the sun.

I passed out programs at a scholarship recognition shindig.
Approximately five people showed up.
On the plus side,
I got to know one of my fellow SBO members better.
He is going to teach me how to tumble.
I like him.

As I sat in my home,
I needed wind and freedom.
Before I knew it,
I was on my little bicycle I have had since I was ten
on my way to my red headed little sister's abode.

We had to clean before our little adventure.

Then we went on our ride.
I have never been so out of shape in my entire life.
Ever.
Twenty feet and we were huffin and puffin.
So,
we went and said hello to a special boy.
Mainly,
because there is a big hill leading to his house.
I like hills.

I like summer.
I can feel it.
Its coming.
Yes.

Monday, May 23, 2011

There Goes That Dream.

What the point?
What is the point of marriage?

All I know and have ever seen is relationship after relationship
fall apart.

Only ending in heartbreak.
And remorse.

What is the point of going through that?
Why would we want to be miserable?

I know the most incredible ladies who deserve an entire kingdom,
and to be treated like a royal princess,
and live happily ever after.

I am not stupid.
I don't live in La-La land.
Life is full of trials.
Trying times that will push you to your limits.
But for once in my life,
I would love to see these hardships pull a marriage together
instead of push the love apart.

I'm just sick of it.

I'm never getting married.

I will with my seven kitties and two parakeets.

My testimony of my Savior's love will be enough for me in this life.
Isn't that why we are here?
To become like Him?
And that is my goal.
So why do I need to fall in love?
Because I know it won't last.
It never does.
Once the honeymoon stage passes, I fear everything will fall apart.
So as of this moment I am never getting married.

Maybe I'll move to Ethiopia.
I will work in the orphanages as a nanny and serve the people there.

Maybe I will become a lonely psychologist,
who spends all of her time developing an actual cure for Schizophrenia.
I'll be so busy, having a husband would be silly.

Yes.
I like these plans.

Along with my kitties.

I give up as a hopeless romantic.

That is a far off dream that will never be reached.

Well,
thanks for listening to my ramble.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Please Start Now. Yes, I Would Like That.

Ah-ha moments.
Priceless.
Do you ever have those moments when all the pieces fit?
Where every thought clicks?
And makes perfect sense?

I had a few of those on Saturday.
Maybe more than a few.

It started out with a service project.
Picking up the trash in American Fork.
My dear group had the joyful task of walking from In-N-Out to Cold Stone.


I brought a friend.
*Place giggle here*
I was told I was completely useless because it was impossible to stay concentrated.
Hm.
I don't understand what they are talking about.


I adore these girls.
I'm a total loser for not getting a picture with my friend.
Ugh.

I spent the rest of the day with my soul sister.
It in insane how you can be the exact opposite of a person,
but at the same,
you find your other half.

She's the artistic one.
Writing, photography, art,
the whole shibang.

I'm the logical one.
I like numbers and patterns.
Consistency.
Symmetry.
OCD.

Being best friends is having one soul in two bodies.

I found my other half.
We maybe so different,
but we are givers.
We will give EVERYTHING to those we care about.
Do anything for them.
Listen to their joys and rejoice with them.
Discuss little details and over analyze every portion as girls love to do.
Listen to stories of heartbreak and comfort,
even when we are dying inside.
Serve the ones we love in every way possible.
I always knew I did this.
But never have I met someone willing to open up to me,
as she has.
The more we talked, the more we began to realize we both made SBO for many reasons.
One of the top reasons?
To become soul sisters.
And we are.
And I love her.
I am so blessed to have this young lassie in my life.
We went to yard sales.
Went grocery shopping.
We played with kitties and puppies.
See for yourself.






Look at my little Simba.
What a gem.

The old and new council member had a little party.
I was abnormally quiet.
I still feel like the odd girl out.
Soon, my odd ways will be accepted and I will have a family with my council.
But for now...
I'm scared.
I'm scared I won't fit it.
That I will be looked at as this random child on council,
that doesn't really belong.
I know once my council sees the true me,
they will welcome me with open arms.

But I am in transition right now.
With friends,
with myself.
I am changing.
And I know it.
Love it, to be precise.
Ah-ha.

I spent half my night with my SBO ladies.
And that is when things clicked.
I looked around, and I felt loved.
And cared for.
When it comes to a Blue,
such as myself,
there is not a greater feeling.
I can already tell,
we are going to be so so close.
I can't wait.
  
Dear StuCo,

I would really appreciate it if you would start now.
I would love to have a family.
My dream is to walk up to all the members and each of them to smile and accept me.
That would be nice.
You are a major blessing in my life, and as I count my many,
I do not want you to go waste.
I want to start now.
This very moment.
I love you.
With all my heart.
Thank you.
For everything.
Please make my senior year the best one ever.
I would really like that.

With all my heart,
Linsey.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Rain and Parks. What More Could You Want?

This school year is nearing a close.
The usual result of this time of year would be...
Sunshine.

But when does Utah ever follow the rules?
Never
We are rebels.

For almost three days straight,
Utah County has been under a constant cover of pouring rain.

My feelings about the current weather?

In Love.

If someone asked me if I would take sunshine or heavy pouring rain?
My answer would obviously be,
heavy pouring rain.

Today during my classes,
I would look through the streaking window 
and pray the rain would stay this strong.
As soon as the bell rang for early lunch,
two little sophies and I made a dart for the car.

Before entering the out doors,
I slipped off my Toms,
cuffed my pants,
and sprinted underneath the crying clouds.
I must have looked like a five year old,
running around,
making splashes in little puddles.
Miles joined me as we sang in the rain.
We even danced a bit.

Once we stopped our immaturity for a moment,
we decided to head to JCW.
Home of the best Ranch Bacon Cheeseburger this world has ever seen.

We ate.
Miles handed me several napkins to clean my face.
I would like to see him drive and eat a massive burger at the same time.
Why I outta....


As we traveled to our prison of a school
we past a park I pass everyday.
Without the consent from my fellow car members,
my vehicle abruptly turned into the parks little street parking.

I told the youngins we were going to swing on swings.
In the rain.
May I just announce right now that this idea was one of my more genius ones?
Because it was.
I giggled a lot.
I felt free.
Clean.
I love rain.
It changes me.
We ran around.
I almost slipped onto my behind.
We climbed in trees.
Pure happiness.
We acted as though we were five.
Because that is who I am at heart.







Next time it rains,
please go play at a park.

It'll make you smile.
Truly smile.

Friday, May 20, 2011

A Late Night and A Stupid Movie.

It is 3:16.
I am still awake.

How?
I am asking myself the same question.

Tonight, this morning to be exact,
I went to the midnight premiere of this fine movie.


I watched the first fifteen minutes,
then slept like a baby for the next hour.
I do not know how that happened.
I didn't like the ending.
It doesn't make sense.
A few questions I have.

What was the purpose of the pig?

Where did the mermaid take the priest?

How in the world did the mermaid get into the fountain of youth?

Did I miss something?

Man.
I want my money back.

On our way to the Megaplex theater,
my two red headed long lived childhood friends and I,
decided to document the night.



We're special.
Very special.

At one point in the evening,
I was somehow left to guard the car,
while every other member of our party went into the gas station.

Typical Linsey situation.

So as I sat in the car all by my lonesome,
in hopes to entertain myself,
I took out my camera.

I have always had the biggest pet peeve.
When girls take pictures of themselves, 
in the passenger side of the car 
or
infront of the mirror.
I HATE IT.
I can't exactly explain why.
I don't like it.
Soo... I decided to make a tribute.
Please enjoy some lovely photos.




Like I said before,
Lovely.
Am I right?

If you ever wonder what Linsey enjoys doing in her spare time,
well, 
this is it.

Anyways,
I love late nights.
After my many distractions I am finishing this post at 3:51.
Time for some sleepy-sleep.


Ladies and gentlemen.
I bid thee farewell.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Unlikely Friendships.

The world is filled with unlikely friendships.
 Odd pairings that, to the casual observer, 
make absolutely no sense at all.
But if we look closer we can see why these alliances form. 

The world is filled with unlikely friendships. 
How do they begin;
With one person desperately in need 
and another willing to lend a helping hand.
When such kindness is offered, 
we're finally able to see the worth of those we had previously written off. 
And before we know it, 
a bond has formed,
 regardless of whether others,
or the unlikely friends involved,
can understand it.

Yes, unlikely friendships start up everyday. 
No one understands this more than I.

May I ask why we haven't been friends before?
Please answer.

That is all.

Well... Yep. This Is It.

Major case of bloggers block.

I have nothing to say.

Other than...

I NEED SUMMER NOW!
I mean now.
This very instant.
Please.

Life is fantastic.
All is well.

I like friends.
They are neat.

I don't know what I would do without my red headed little sister.
She completes me.

I want student council to officially start.
Then all my dreams might come true.

I found out my Crush reads this blog where I poor out my emotions.
Well,
there's the end of those stories.

Disney Scene?
Well,
it is not really Disney.

The Swan Princess.
Easily my favorite princess movie.
Ever.

When I was seven,
my mommy had a lady in our ward sew me my own custom dress,
so I could be just like Odette.

Far Longer Than Forever:
Please skip the annoying beginning seconds.




Monday, May 16, 2011

What In The World?

I just ordered Cafe Rio.
On the Internet.

Best.
Idea.
EVER!

Pork burrito here I come.

Another Day of Joy.

I love love.
Don't you?

Feeling giddy and appreciated?
Swooned and special?

Ya.
It's the best.

Especially when communication is present.
It's neat.

I don't know why he still makes me nervous.
I see him,
and my mind fumbles,
my tummy fills with fluttering creatures,
and my feet carry me in the opposite direction.
It's not okay.

I spent the whole day banging my head into the desk
thinking of how pathetic I act when I see him down the hall,
and I sprint away.
I get so scared.

Then I hear my name down the hall.
"Puffs! Hey Puffs!"
Long story.

I began to wonder why I was so nervous in the first place.
When we talk, we just click.
He makes me so happy and giggly.

I came home and my mom asked me why I was so smiley.
She looked at me curiously then said
Never mind, I know why.
And chuckled to herself as she walked away.
Mothers.
Think they know everything. 
Probably because they do.

I can feel myself falling.
I'm terrified,
but at the same time,
I could not be more excited.

Another Disney scene.

Aladin and Jasmine.
Classic.

Enjoy.





Sunday, May 15, 2011

Stupid Research Paper.

CURSE YOU FIVE PAGED RESEARCH PAPER.

I think I need to be tested for ADD.
I cannot focus.

Hence, the blogging.

I quit high school.

The end.

I'm on a Disney rave right now.

Please enjoy Simba and Nala falling in love.
I know I do.



Mark The Day Folks. It's A Big One.

Hello. :)
Hold on.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay.
Watch this video, por favor:





Pretty much my emotions in a song.
Except for I would say,
I am in like.
Deep like.
Lots of it.

Please mark today as the day I was myself,
yes still awkward, clumsy, and a little out there,
but myself around.... him. :)

Here's how is went down.
It was definitely awkward at first.
It always is.
He played a game of basketball while I laid on the road.
We decided to go get a snowcone.
After a little tooth pulling conversation,
BAM.
I don't know what happened,
but I wasn't nervous anymore.
I wasn't watching every word that came out of my mouth,
and planning my reaction to every one of his.
It just... flowed.
I was smiling and giddy and happy and... man.
We went back to the pool of munchkins 
and lets just say we didn't leave each other's side.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

We just talked.
And laughed.
We made a list for summer.
What a fantastic summer it is going to be.
We talked about the frisky days of kindergarten.
Our biographies were discussed.
Jokes about shaven legs and big caffs were shared. 
I can just laugh.
I am ecstatic.


So happy.

Once I walked in the door,
after a simple hug on the door step,
I sprinted to my mother and tackled her with excitement.
After she yelled at me for a few moments for interrupting her reading session,
I told her my whole night.

I screamed a lot.

I am in like,
I am in like,
And I don't care who knows it!

Did I mention we are going to the Bruno Mars concert??
WOOT WOOT!