Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Surprises. Ahhhh.

I'm in shock.
I'm sad.
I'm happy.
Jumping with joy.
On the verge of tears.

Every emotion in the book.

Life is full of surprises.

Stay on your toes people.

You never know what fate is going to throw at you.

Just be ready.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Naps. Naps are good.

Once upon time there lived a young lassie named Linsey.
She was a very sleep deprived child who can never quite function right due to no rest.
Arriving at her prison chamber, aka high school, at 6:45 sharp,
She was able to take Council pictures, as well as measure for a sweater.
What a sight.
The young girl was squealing and jumping with joy as the realization of future began to unfold.
At one point, her new council was standing in a circle.
She looked around at each individual member,
and had an unyielding love for every one.
She saw her new family and smiled.
Almost brought to tears.
She was an emotional little thing.
It's common.
Once the bell rang, she venture off to the building of the lord.
The young girl adored Seminary, loving to learn of the gospel.
As soon as she entered the room, she carefully sat down her belongings.
The child laid her head on the desk and was out before another thought could enter her head.
The bell awoke her.
She missed the entire lesson.
She was a walking zombie.
Not knowing where she was going, what class she had next, or even her own thoughts.
With a single phone call to her mother, she went home.
The lassie took at nap from 9:30 to 1:00.
Yes, she slept through all the hours of the school day.
What a wonderful day this young girl experienced.
She returned to school to talk to her new old friend, that alone made her day.
She admires him.
Quite a bit.
The end.

I like friends.
And sleep.
Now I would like to retire to my room of slumber and sweet pleasant dreams.
Til then,
Sleep tight all members of the blogosphere.

Monday, April 25, 2011

A Quick Little Update.

I have a new old friend.
He makes me smile.
And giggle.
I like this feeling.

I want Student Council to start now.
I would like my new family to love me.
My new sisters are the greatest.
Please begin now.
Oh wait... 
I have sweater fittings in the morning.
At 6:45 in the morning.
Yay me.
Actually I'm quite excited.
Ecstatic to be exact.

This week is concert week.
This means hard work.
14 hours at the place I like to call prison.
I love concert week.
And this is only the beginning.
Please come!
April 28 & 29
7:00 in the auditorium.
$5 dollars at the door.
It is going to be a great show.

My Crush still makes me giddy.
I wish I saw him more.
But what can you do?

I put Medical Assisting into my schedule.
As well as student council.
I cannot wait for my senior year.
I am so impatient.
I want it to start this very moment.
Or at least for it to be summer.
That will do.
5 more weeks.
I can do this.
Only 4 more Mondays right?

Sunday, April 24, 2011

To The Boy Of My Dreams.

I have a deep burning love.
Yes, a certain boy makes me go weak in the knees.
The mention of him makes me stammer like an idiot.
He is beautiful in every way.
His eyes, his hair, his voice.
He is perfection.
He is everything I want and need.
We are perfect for each other.
And one day, he will love me in return.
His name is Justin Bieber.
I am hooked.
I must meet him before I die.
And I will.
He will know my name before I leave this earth.
Mark my words.
Love you JB.

His smile at 2:45 brought me to tears.
Man, he is amazing.

Not to mention he is an amazing person.
Watch this.
You won't regret it.
I get goosebumps every time.
He is an inspiration.
He is changing the world.
I love my man JB.

I Stand All Amazed.

    I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me
    Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me
    I tremble to know that for me he was crucified
    That for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died
    Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me
    Oh, it is wonderful
    Wonderful to me
    I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine
    To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine
    That he should extend his great love unto such as I
    Sufficient to own, to redeem and to justify
      Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me
      Oh, it is wonderful
      Wonderful to me
    I think of his hands, pierced and bleeding to pay my debt
    Such mercy, such love and devotion can I forget?
    No, no, I will praise and adore at the mercy seat
    Until at the glorified throne I kneel at his feet
    I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me
    Secure in the promise of life in his victory
    Thus ransomed from death I will live to my Savior's praise
    And sing of his goodness and mercy through endless days
      Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me
      Oh, it is wonderful
      Wonderful to me
      Remember our Savior.
      And his atoning sacrifice.
      Remember that He is risen.
      He has conquered death, that we may all live again.
      Christ is my best friend.
      He has given me everything.
      And I will give him my life.
      I will be an instrument in his humble hands.
      My testimony is strong.
      And unyielding.
      I am a daughter of King,
      and sister of his only begotten Son.
      A true princess.
      Happy Easter. :)

Everything Happens For A Reason.

I trust that everything happens for a reason, even when we're not wise enough to see it.

Every one of us gets through the tough times because somebody is there, standing in the gap to close it for us.

The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.

What we're all striving for is authenticity, a spirit-to-spirit connection.

I've learned that you can't have everything and do everything at the same time.

Prayers are answered.
Heavenly works in the most mysterious of ways.

I went to a surprise party.
Not with my usual group of friends,
but the children I aspire to be friends with in the next year.
The soccer players.
The tennis plays.
The student council souls.

I began to shake as I entered the back yard where the partying was being held.
With my red headed little sister by my side,
my feet drug me to the back yard.
All eyes looked at me skeptical.
Glaring, their eyes practically spoke:
"Why is she here?"
I averted my eyes downward, sulking into the basement of the house,
to find the one true place I belong.
The food table.
Yes, food always makes everything better.
After I indulged myself with veggies and sweets,
I began to collect my thoughts.
"I must fit in. I must. You can do this Linsey. Just be yourself. You can do this."
So the self pep up talk began.
It helped a little.
I went back into the sharp cold air,
and began socializing.
Have I ever mentioned I am one of the most bizarre people to walk to planet?
My life is world of awkward.
But that is what makes it fun right?
As I began to climb out of my little shell,
my true colors shone through.
I was my real, crazy self.
From breaking it down in Just Dance 2,
or creating my own dance moves,
interpretive dancing through the entire basement,
or being twirled around the floor by my newly rekindled friendship,
stuffing my face with cake,
making new friends,
bum wars,
scary movies,
star gazing with my Crush,
long hugs in the cold,
and screaming through the streets,
I was able to see my life for what is truly was.
This is my new path.
The best kids around.
So silly.
So innocent.
Kids that dance around like fouls for the heck of it.
And to be honest?
I haven't been that happy in the longest time.
I could feel the Holy Ghost burning inside me.
Whispering that this was my new route.
These friendships are the ones I must pursue.
I could not be more excited.
I cannot remember a time I have laughed that much.
Rolling on the floor.
A smile that forms that is definitely going to leave line in the future.
But that is what this life is all about?
Moments like these?
I believe so.

I am excited for my newly made Cheerleaders.
They are going to have the time of their lives.
It is their path.
My is completely different.
And that's okay.
It's the way Heavenly Father wants it,
so it must be right.
And I am not going to doubt it.
I am going to smile.
Embrace the change.
Because, if my senior year is like tonight,
my life is going to be incredible.
Best. Year. Ever.
I cannot wait.
I am so happy.
Truly happy.
My life is never to go be the same,
but hey,
I think it is only going to get better.
I know it is.

Sometimes people come into your life and 
you know right away that they were meant to be there.
To serve some sort of purpose, 
teach you a lesson 
or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be but,
 when you lock eyes with them, 
you know that every moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,
 painful and unfair but, 
upon reflection, 
you realize that without overcoming those obstacles 
you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. 
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.
 Illness, Injury, love, 
lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.
Without these small tests,
 life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. 
Safe and comfortable
 but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet affect your life. 
The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, 
and the bad experiences can be learned from. 
In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, 
betrays you or breaks your heart, 
forgive them.
Because they have helped you learn about trust and 
the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to. 
If someone loves you, love them back, unconditionally,
 not only because they love you,
 but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.
Make every day count.
 Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, 
for you may never be able to experience it again. 
Talk to people whom you have never talked to before,
and actually listen. 
Let yourself fall in love
break free and set your sights high.
Hold your head up because you have every right to.
Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, 
for if you don’t believe in yourself, 
no one else will believe in you.
You can make anything you wish of your life. 
Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.
And if you love someone tell them, you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
Learn a lesson in life each day that you live.
 Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday. 
Was it worth it?

Saturday, April 23, 2011

I Am Getting Stronger.

We've all grown up, and there's no denying that. But it is tough to tell if in that grown up we've simply grown apart.

I'm a first believer in the power of change. But there is one thing I've learned, and that's the hardest part of moving forward is not looking back. Now here I sit so far a way, remembering all our memories, and it's times like these that I miss you most, remembering when we were so close. Sometimes I wish I could just fast-forward through time, just to see if it's worth it all in the end.

I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.

And now we’re left here, two separate paths. You’ll take yours and I’ll take mine. We’re left with broken hearts, growing older, and growing apart.

And slowly as the days go by, you lose friends you never thought you would.

I’ll remember you when I get old and I start getting wrinkles from all the times you made me laugh.

If ever there is a tomorrow when we’re not together, there’s something you must always remember: You arebraver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think but the most important thing is even if we’re apart I will always be with you.

Tonight, the cheer squad was picked.

My dear friends are officially cheerleaders at American Fork High School.

As I looked at the list of girls, my heart sank as I saw their names bluntly sitting there.

Staring me in eyes. 

Mocking me.


There goes my heart.

Everything is going to be different.

They say it isn't going to change.

But how can it not?

Things are never going to be the same.

This fine evening I called my girls as a got off work.

No answers. No calls back.

I then decided to go to the theater to see a movie with my dear cousin.

T-sizzle replied back to my call.

All the newly made cheerleaders were having a party of slumber.

She asked if I would like to be in attendance.

This is what I am talking about.

Usually, Friday nights consist of girl dates.

Texas Roadhouse or Cafe Rio,

preceded by a heart felt chick flick in her bed, 

with deep talks on life,

and chocolate.

Now, she is going to be with them.

And I will be the little tag-along.

I really don't want that.

I would rather chew off my left foot.

My new council will be my saving grace.

But that honestly will not begin until next year.

So I must persevere through summer and make the most of it.

I am just in a difficult spot.

I am weak.

I am fragile.

I think back to the night I found out I made SBO.

How empowered and strong I felt.

Nothing could stand in my way.

I was given the most amazing blessing in the world.

Nothing could take me down.

Heavenly Father then commanded:

Linsey, Be Humble.


And the trials began.

Within one week, 

I have lost my missionary and my best friends.

I am struggling with heart ache.

And change.

Most importantly, change.

I have a song that directly relates to my life.

Between Elder and my official cheerleaders.

A Little Bit Stronger
Sara Evans

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my faceI got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

Trials. Trials. Trials.
There are lessons that must be learn.
Heavenly Father is sending me a message.
I am growing.
I am getting stronger.
I can do this.