Sunday, July 24, 2011

Here We Go.

I'm definitely slacking on the blog.

Ever spare minute I have is spent reading Harry Potter.
It's fine.

I leave for trek in four hours.
Yay me.

I shall write of my trek across the plains of Wyoming
as well as my tale of my student council retreat.

Peace out, cub scout.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Happy Birthday My Darling.

My cousins are the best.
But one specific cousin is my best friend.
It was her birthday today.
She is officially a big 19 year old.
Go Nana!

Thank you for being the big (little) sister I never had.
Thank you for putting up with my dramatic ways.
Thank you for sharing my odd obsessions.
Thank you for laughing at my dumb jokes.
Thank you for being the most amazing person.
You are so special to me.
I don't know what I would do without you in my life.

Best friend.
Best cousin.
Best sister.

Tomorrow the epic tale of my little retreat shall be revealed on the pages of this blog.
I love my council.
Every single one.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Magic Everywhere You Look.

My life equals greatness.
This weekend has proven to me that magic really does exist.
In every form.

Thursday night was my cousin's Wedding Dinner.

And let me clarify something right here.
My extended family is close.
We're talking really close.
My cousins are like my second sisters.
My brothers.
My aunts are like my other mothers.
We are weirdly close.
And I love it.

So when I say my cousin is getting married,
It feels like my sister is being wedded.
So it's a big deal.
A really big deal.

The Wedding Dinner was beautiful.
It was down Vintage Lane in the backyard of a mansion.
The yard was covered in flowers of pink and purple.
The smell of steak and strawberry lemonade was in the air.
In the back was a roaring river with swings soaring high.
It was a perfect July day.
The sun was shining warm and bright.

After the food was served the microphone was given to the bride and groom to share a few thoughts.
The story was shared of how they met.
And it brought tears to my eyes.

It all started junior year.
She ran track and was a cheerleader.
His life was dedicated to football.
They had seen each other around but never thought anything of it.
Then, this boy had a life changing idea.
He asked her to junior prom.
And from the way it sounded,
It was one of the best nights of there lives.
Well a couple of Sundays afterward,
this girl was sitting in Young Women were she was listening to a lesson on temple marriage.
She said she had this overwhelming feeling that she was meant to marry this boy.
She knew without out a doubt in her mind it was going to work.
She suddenly escaped into a vision of swinging their child together
and felt such peace.
So the summer began.
And by the end of the summer romance,
they had lost their virgin lips together.
Senior year was perfect.
She was cheer captain.
He was the quarterback.
They went to every dance.
Every weekend.
Too soon,
they graduated and he got his mission call.
She had a full ride to BYU for track.
He had a full ride to the same university for football.
He left the following December.
She sent him off and wrote him faithfully at first.
But life got in the way and she wanted to date.
Make sure he's the one.
So she searched.
They stopped writing.
A letter here and there.
Two years later,
she know he was the one.
Two days after he was home,
she called him and asked him out.
They kissed.
And it was fate from there.
He proposed in May.

Cutest story ever.
It kills me.
The wedding dinner was amazing.

Later that evening...

My life officially ended.
As in,
I have nothing to look forward to.
Harry Potter.
And I discovered a new pet peeve.
Why in the world would people go to the midnight showing if they aren't true fans?
Because it's the cool thing to do?
Oh, I was bugged.
And if you haven't ever read one book?
I think there should be a Harry Potter test before you can purchase midnight showing tickets.
You must pass with a 80% or higher.
Thank you.
Because us people,
who have read the entire series three times through,
and can pratically quote every line in ever movie,
do not appreciate your lack of love for our dear Harry and your infatuation with following the crowd.
Thank you, again.
I sobbed.
Through out the whole end.
And the car ride home was a whole other thing.
This marks the end of my childhood.
I saw the first movie while I was in second grade.
The Sorcerer's Stone was my very first chapter book.
The whole gang has always been apart of my life.
And an exciting part at that.

When I turned eleven I spent my entire birthday waiting for my 
Hogwarts acceptance letter.
That night, when it never came,
I cried myself to sleep.

Worst. Birthday. Ever.

I'm obsessed.
When it's dark I call out
But the lights never turn on.

When I want something to come to me, I scream
But the chocolate never comes.

I want to be a witch so bad.
What ever.
I can just live with being a muggle.... I guess.

That's right. We're dorks.
Me and my cousins.

The promptly in the morning,
we headed off to the temple.

And they were married.
Eternally bound.

I have never seen a couple more in love.
Watch this video.
You will surely see what I am talking about.

The Video of Love.

Doesn't that say it all.
She looked like a princess.
With her prince.

It is a true fairytale.


Magic does exist.

All you got to do is go looking for it.

Thursday, July 14, 2011



Goes by Fitzgerald.
Also known as Fitzy.
Green fur with tin gray eyes.
 Last seen in Highland by Mountain Ridge Junior High.
She was brutally attacked and ran over.
She was then picked up off the street,
and has been missing ever since.
We are offer a 
To have our dear Fitzy home.
If you have any knowledge of her whereabouts please call,
that is
Thank you.
The sincere owner and compassionate cat lover,
Linsey Brown. 

Monday, July 11, 2011

Just Watch Me.

You know what?
I'm gonna do it.

To heck with all rules and guidelines.
To heck with sanity.

All I know is I need to do this before I completely fall apart.
I got everything I need.
This could go one way or the other.

Just look at my Quote of the Day.

Wish me luck peeps.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Eight Months Gone And I'm Still Reaching.

I don't even know what to say.

8 months.

Of tears.
Of heartache.
Of lonliness.
Of trying to move on.
Of... hell.

I can't believe I have made it this far.

I'm still broken.

Instead of explaining my life,
Why not revert to Taylor Swift songs?
Because I'm pretty sure she secretly watches my life with a hidden camera.
Her songs are completely relevant to my life.
I love it.
Music is a story.
I created this playlist.
Our relationship.
Taylor Swift style.
Lets begin.


This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Jump Then Fall

I like the way you sound in the morning
We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have ever heard

I like the way I can't keep my focus
I watch you talk, you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is
We should be together
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Sparks Fly

If you want to know the story
go here:

I promise.
It's a great story.

Our Song

Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again


You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,

I'm Only Me When I'm With You

I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

The Other Side of The Door

With your face, and your beautiful eyes
And the conversation
With the little white lies.
And the faded picture
Of a beautiful night
You carried me from your car
up the stairs
And I broke down cryin'
Was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess,
I need you


You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter
She is the best thing that’s ever been mine."
Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back

Ok. This deserves a story.
Because it is one of my favorites.

So it was our last date.
We just got done eating dinner at Outback
and he were headed to the Brit's apartment to spend our second to last night together.
Little thing about Elder.
He HATES Taylor Swift.
Can't stand her.
I don't know why.
But this song came out and I was completely obsessed because it reminded me of him perfectly.
So on our way to the apartment,
this song came on the radio.
I totally flipped.
I blasted it.
And started belting at the top of my lungs.
He didn't like that too much.
He kept trying to turn it down, but I insisted.
Then... We got lost.
He had no idea where we were.
Okay given... we were on University Parkway in Provo
but we did not know how to get to the Brit's apartment.
So here I am.
Belting and singing, trying to convince him of my love.
He is screaming at me to shut up and is about to blow up.
I am laughing my guts out.
He suddenly pulls over to the side of the busy street.
Leans over me and opens my door.
He clearly states that
 if I as so much make another little giggle I can walk home.
I look him in the eye.
And let out the biggest giggle ever giggled on the planet.
Before I could even comprehend what happened,
He leaped out of his seat and tackled me,
out of the car,
and there we laid on the grass of University Parkway.
With his body on top of mine he whispers
"I'll make you pay for that."
And the tickling and kissing began.
I couldn't move.
Nor did I want to.
So that song is dear to me.
We decided it could be one of our songs.
Well... I did.
He didn't approve.
But I believe it was appropriate.

Today Was A Fairytale

Can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

This song is the song of our last date.
Because indeed,
he did wear a dark gray t-shirt and I did wear a dress.
And I did fall in love.

Long Live

Long live the walls we crashed through
While the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming, long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming, long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders, one day we will be remembered

This is the theme song of our relationship.
It truly is.


Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you
So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours


And I watch you fly around the world
And I hope you don't save some other girl
Don't forget, don't forget about me.
I'm far away but I'll never let you go
I'm lovestruck and looking out the window
Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you
Wishing the card was from you
Wishing the call was from you
'Cause I've loved you from the very first day


Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie
It's the kind of ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy
And it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple
Never easy
Never a clean break
No one here to save me
You're the only thing I know
Like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe without you, 

But I have to

If This Was A Movie

Listen for yourself.
It's my theme song for my life right now.

Tim Mcgraw

But when you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me

And I hope when he gets back our life will still follow...

Mary's Song

Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...
Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and 

all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside till the morning light
Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee...

Thank you Taylor Swift for writing my life.
It helps.
A lot.

16 more to go.
I can do this.
1/3 of the way done.
That's exciting.

Miss you Elder.

The Awkward Life. It's Normal.

On a scale of one to awkward,
how weird was my day?


Lets start from the beginning, shall we?

My alarm didn't go off.
I woke up late.
That's always a great way to start of the day.

I rushed to practice my fitness routine.
For the pageant.
Someone shoot me now.
I was late.
My teacher was mad.
I had to leave early.
She wasn't pleased.

With a slicked ponytail and the awkwardest of polos
I headed off to the parade.
I don't quite know why...
But I shut off when I'm around my council.
I don't know what to say.
How to act.
What's right and what's wrong.
I just become very quiet.
It's an issue.

The parade was hot.
Very hot.
We chanted and threw bouncy balls at little children's heads.
I would say it was a definite success.
At the end of the parade, I jumped off our little trailor.
Slowly, I drug my feet along the blackened concrete.
I lifted my head towards the warm sky,
and smiled.
As my eyes shifted downward, there they were.
Walking in their red uniforms, hair in a bow.
Before I could even think,
My legs took off into a sprint.
I took out the red head.
She didn't even see me coming.
The tackling and hugs began.
My three cheerleaders.
I pulled away and looked at my life.
There stood my bestestestest friends.
In their cheer uniforms, with the personae of a champions.
I looked down and saw my charchoal polo hanging loosely.

For a split second,
I wished things were diferent
I wished I wasn't an SBO.
I wished they weren't cheerleaders.
In that moment I would have given my liver and kidney
to go back to how things used to be.
Dance Company.
Our sisterhood.
We were one.
No difference.

But as I snapped back to reality I realized that those thoughts were silly.
If things never changed, 
how would we ever grow?
So I put on a smile for them and told them how my summer had been.
I hugged each of them.
And stood there as they walked away in their little skirts.
It was hard.
It was really hard.
I walked back to our little trailer and didn't say a word the whole drive back.
I gave two of my favorite council members rides home.
The entire time holding back tears.
Some news was dropped on my head like a bomb.
I was crushed.
All I wanted to do was sleep.

I walked in my door and hugged my mother.
In that moment,
the tears released.
I let all the pain out.
The lonliness.
The saddness.

Once I was done with my little episode,
I crawled onto my couch.
And passed out for the next 6 hours.
Didn't I tell you sleep is my cure to depression?
Ya, I was out for the count.

I woke up.
Took a shower.
I had to clean all my emotions off.
Got decently ready,
and headed off to be with my cheerleaders.
I needed them.
I needed reassurance that we really would be best friends forever.
And we had fun.
I could tell they were distant... 
But that's okay.
I was too.

We went to the car show.
The carnival.
We had a barbeque.

Then the fireworks.
And let me tell you,
Everyone and their dog was there.

And this is where the awkwardness roles into play.

I saw all my seniors.
My heart leaped every time I saw one of their smiling faces.
I saw my sophomores.
Now that put a smile on my face.
My asian.
My best friend.
It was great.
They made lots of jokes.
I laughed and shook it off.

Awkward moment number one.
I take it back.
I hate sophomores.
Their immaturity astounds me.

Then I saw the boy that created quite a mess in my life.
I tried to act natural.
My usual smilely self.
But someitmes...
Things just naturally get awkward.
And jokes are made.
There is that oh so awkward I eye contact.
 The two of us just busted up laughing.
Because we are close.
And what happened isn't a secret.
So we walked halfway to my car.
Came up with an awkward handshake.

Talking to another friends I turn the corner and my life honestly froze.
For a split second all I could hear was my fluttering heart.
I didn't know whether to run.
Or whether to go up and talk to them.
So instead I just stood there as awkwardly as possible.
The four of us.
She loved him.
They were best friends.
He kissed me.
That boy was my crush.
They were close
We don't talk.
They like each other.
We're close friends.
They don't talk.
There still kind of friends.
And everything has switched.
And we all know it.
So here we are.
All trying to act normal when inside we are literally having a heart attack.
I tried to stay calm.
Smile as much as I could.
And a little too soon,
I said goodbye.
Hyperventilating a little bit,
I turned the corner.

And I took off into a sprint.
Across the entire school and the parking lot.
I had to get my stress out some way.
Once I reached the seminary building I fell to the ground.
I cried for a bit.
What a mess I had made of my life.

I proceeded to drive home,
blasting T-Swift.

My life.
So awkward.
But you know what?
It's definitely interesting...
And I think I can live with that.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

From The Lazy One.

You know those days when you have a lot to do?
And so little time?

Yet you seem to lack the motivation to get out of your bed?
Welcome to summer peeps.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

The Brother. What A Stud.

Family and Friends,
Well this week has been Crazy and fun!  Last P-day I challenged Elder Hansen that he could not drink one Gallon of milk In ten minutes and hold it down for five Minutes.  With Elder Hansens Personality He confidently took that challenge and thought he could do it.  So we have just got done playing basketball for a couple hours and we get the trash out just in case and we see if you can do this.   He didn't know that it is impossible to drink a whole gallon of milk and keep it down.  So The time starts going and he drinks like a quarter of it in like on minute and then he is like I can't do it.  It was so funny.  Obviously the whole District is cheering for him to down it and keep going.   Five minutes into it he has downed half of it and he is just talking and then All of a sudden he threw up and it projectiled 13 feet.  IT was the biggest projectile throw I have ever seen and I was on the side of him like two feet away and it was the funniest thing ever.  So that was an adventure of itself.

They did the gallon challenge.
On his mission.
For fun.
Welcome to the missionary life of California everyone!
   I Love the 4th of July in Utah!  One I am with my family we get to go to the parade! We get amazing fire work shows all over the Place and you get to light off fireworks basically the whole month of July.  Here in California you couldn't tell that the 4th of July was coming until that afternoon.  But having said that My 4th of July was Awesome!!!   It was our P-day and our whole District got invited by the Daltons for a BBQ and play on there new sport court.  We played in the sun about 95 degrees for 4 hours!  We played Basketball, Volley ball, and Paddle Tennis and it was a Blast.  Oh, and the food was amazing.  It was so hot and for some reason us Elders forgot to put on Sunscreen.  Yep,  Our whole DIstrict got fried.  I even go fried and have the sickest Tan line or I guess you could say Burn line. haha.  But it was fun and the Members here rock.  We then went to another BBQ and we were able to do a suprise attack on non-members who were there.  We shared the Book of Mormon and invited them to read the book of Mormon and Find out for themselves if it is true.  They accepted it and they thanked Elder Hansen and I for Doing what we do and going around telling people what we believe in so that was pretty cool.  We then were able to see the fireworks with the Hanagans and got home just in time for Cerfew.  It was Totally awesome!!! 

Okay so my brother has just been partying it up?
And sharing the gospel?
Best job ever.

    Then this morning I was able along with my whole District to go and meet President Bowen.  He is a really cool guy!   I am so excited because I know that he really was called by God and that there are going to be a lot of Miracles here in this mission.  He said that all here cares that we do his advice is to come closer to Jesus Christ.  If you have the understanding of his , Compassion, Charity, and Love for us then we will have more of Desire to work harder and not to do anything that you would offend the Savior.  I really Liked that.  Instead of being obedient just to be obedient.  You have Faith in Jesus Christ and it makes you want to be Obedient and do all we can to be his servants.  President and Sister Bowen are Awesome and they have had a lot of Trials to get here and they did!  I am Really Excited and so Grateful I am in this mission in Yorba Linda with Elder Hansen!  I know that If I continue to be Faithful To my Lord, my Savior, and My King that everything will fall into place. I love you All hope you all had a Great 4th of July!!!!!!!!!!

I love how his new mission president said it.
It shouldn't be 
"Be obedient because that's what you are supposed to do."
It should be 
"You want to serve and show your love for your Savior so you will follow his commandments and his prophets because you care about him so much."

Oh the joys of having a brother as a missionary.
Can you believe its already been ten months?
I can't.

Crazy Madness.

Sometime life becomes a little crazy.
To the point were the thought of blogging is nonsense.
Because there is not a single moment where my body rests.

I'm finally living the summer of my dreams.
I have stayed out until one or later every night.
There is a boy.
A special one at that.
We stay up every night talking about our lives and how blessed we are to have met each other.
He's helping my broken heart.

Stadium of Fire.
Enough said.
David, my love?
I adore you.
With all my heart.

As for the rest of my life?
Let's just say this.
There is only one other time I was this happy.
And that is saying a lot.
Summer is beautiful.
It has become everything I have imagined and more.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Those Summer Nights.

I just walked in the door.
It is 3:13.
Don't fret.
I wasn't being wild.
I wasn't being crazy.

I was in my drive way by 12:00.
I promise.
We started talking.
About everything and nothing.
About Transformers 3 and my infatuation with
Shia Lebeouf and Josh Duahmel.
The first time we met.

He might have maybe swept me off my feet.
Maybe a little bit.
Remember that very special boy?
He has kind of made my world spin out of control.
And I love it.
He has made my summer feel like summer.
He makes me giddy.
He's... special.

Life is grand my friends.
Any summer romances?
Please share.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Quotes For The Current Life.

Remember our first date?
I wore the shirt you gave me for my birthday.
My mom awkwardly made us sit on the couch for pictures.
We went with all graduated people.
I was completely awkward.
We watched this movie.
You tickled my back.
I tickled yours.
Time flies my dear.
And I mean that forever.

This has absolutely nothing to do with my life.
But... I'm obsessed.
So it's normal.

Life wonderful.
I am so pleased.
So blessed.
And I think I might have found a keeper.
Actually I'm almost positive I did.
His blogger identity shall be arriving soon.
Til then,