Well, This Sucks.

I have forgotten how to laugh.

Truly laugh.

I can't remember the last time I felt complete bliss.

I blame it all on...

Stress.

Being overwhelmed.

Being torn.

And broken.

Heartbroken.

Somewhere in the midst of all that crap,

I have forgotten how to laugh.

I miss my carefree self.

I miss the days of recklessness,

where none of the rules applied to me.

I was living high school to the fullest.

I miss it.

Because now...

I'm hard.

I don't smile unless its expected of me.

Forced.

I don't know how to change.

I want to learn to giggle again.

Be out of control.

Because as of right now...

I don't know how to get back to that.

If you could,

include me in your prayers.

I need all the help I can get right now.