Vulnerable.

Relationships scare me sometimes.
Why?
Because then that person has the power to make or break my day.
He has the ability to make me smile, laugh, and even cry.
One person can so much to hold over me.
I'm vulnerable, 
And for me,
That's a scary position to be in.


But.


If you are falling in love with me it's only fair that you know
What you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities,
and my obsession with trying to understand what it really means to be me.
You are falling in love with my immaturity,
My constant need to feel loved and appreciated,
My overreactive tear ducts,
My internet obsession,
My tendency to be a little clingy.
You fall in love with my troubled past,
my hopes and my dreams,
and how I am a hopeless romantic at heart.
If you fall in love with me,
you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections,
and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I am with you,
the way I will text you in the morning just telling you I hope you have a great day.
You're falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say,
and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me,
the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me,
despite my thinking that it is impossible.