Noun: Habitual sleeplessness; inability to sleep.
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Adjective: Done, occurring, or active at night
Sleep is unattainable at night time.
My mind is racing at the speed of light.
I can't stop thinking about a boy I might lose due to stupidity.
How I might have single handedly destroyed something I really cared about.
How it might all be over.
But is it for the better?
What if this other proposal works out nicely?
What do I do?
I need to go on a drive with this young fellow.
Talk about what we both want.
Where we stand.
Why does he have to be on the other side of the country?
I don't like this.
But I don't take it back.
Not one bit.
Because you only live once.
And life is about taking chances and just...
And being a stupid teenager.
Which I am.
Oh the jumblings of my mind.
It will all work out.
And I will have the best summer of my life.
Regardless of my current situation.